thepianist86's Revelife

on my own...

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 02:57:14 GMT

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, without a friend
without a face to say hello to
But now the night is near
And I can make-believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'til morning
Without him, I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes and he has found me

In the rain
The pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him, the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm lonely
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me, his world will go on turning
The world is full of happiness that I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him...
But only on my own...

should be imagined with lea salonga singing it

Isaiah 30:15

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 14:23:44 GMT

So, I am a fan of Stuff Christians Like. Post #355 was serious, for a change...here's my reflection/response.

Isaiah 30:15 -

This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says:
"In repentance and rest is your salvation,
in quietness and trust is your strength,

but you would have none of it."

What a beautiful warning. Your salvation comes in repentance and rest. Rest, people. Repent, yes, and then rest. But you have forgotten to rest. I have forgotten to rest. Christian Salvation is easy - repent and rest. But that isn't enough for us. We think there must have been something left out. Maybe what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel meant to say was "Repent, volunteer as a Sunday School teacher at church, be a camp counselor, sing in the worship team, balance the church's financial record and, if there is time left over, rest, for your salvation comes through these things." It is in the times of quiet and trust that we are shown what needs to change, and we are given the strength to change it, but it is not the change that is our salvation--it is the repentance and rest. The change is an outgrowth of the repentance and rest that is our salvation.

And that spoke to me today.

John 4:46-53

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 10:34:26 GMT

So...Jesus went back to Cana, in Galilee--you know...where He turned water into wine--and a certain official who had a sick son in Capernaum, having heard that Jesus was in the area, decided to come and ask Christ to heal his child.
I had two thoughts reading this. First - Jesus seems to mistake the man's intent. I assume the statement was as much (or more) for those around him as for the man himself, but Christ accuses the man of asking for a sign. For some reason, as I read this, I thought, if the man were asking for a sign, I cannot imagine that his only reply would be "Sir, come down before my child dies." I would think something along the lines of "No, no, no, You have it all wrong," would be in line. Maybe a bit of "I had heard that You could do miracles, and thought you might pop one out for me." or "If you are the Messiah, heal him!"
Instead, the man somehow knows without the miracle that it is something that Christ can do. (That is the second thing that I thought, btw.) The phrasing of his request "Sir, come down before my child dies," carries with it an assumption that Christ has the power to heal his son. It says, "my child will die if you don't do something," rather than, "do something to prove yourself." The man isn't asking because he wants to believe, he's asking because he believes. And when it was verified by his servants, "he and his whole household believed."
Which leads me to a third thing that I just thought - in addition to believing before he asked, he continued to believe after what he asked happened. Things went right, and he remembered Christ.

And that spoke to me this morning.

abbott and costello

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 13:13:58 GMT

-i'd much rather have someone to talk to.

-why don't you talk to yourself?

-i get too many stupid answers.

procrastination

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 05:05:47 GMT

so, i should definitely be writing an essay for grad school. but, instead, i'm whiling away my time doing...NOTHING!! YAAY!! WOOO!! *throws a party in his apartment* no wait...that counts as something. *cancels party plans*

nothing. well...listening to celtic music on rhapsody. but that doesn't count. not when i need to write an essay.

ok...now to it.

*laughs and goes to read xkcd.com*

e.e. cummings

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 19:33:38 GMT

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

disillusionment...

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 03:41:54 GMT

i think i am growing disillusioned. just a thought. something about growing up...struggling towards higher levels of maturity...working towards something...making no money...no responses about job application/interviews...no relationships to speak of...new church (theoretically)...new area...new school...new industry...new major...kind of regretting that i left the last...

longing for...something...

something to happen...

something...

intro and church commentary

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 14:55:09 GMT

so, i figured i ought to type up a proper intro post, rather than just leaving the default one up. i've been a member of xanga for a long time, but recently have stopped blogging there, for what ever reason. couldn't tell you. my account kinda just died. so, i'm starting again. i just graduated from college and am currently looking for a job. that is probably (one of ) my major concern(s) right now.

i'm also church hunting, i guess you could call it. i am not a major fan of church shopping, as a general rule. i don't believe that a church has to immediately minister to me. if it is a church of God (not the denomination...a church that is worshipping the one, true God) it will minister to me, and i (as part of the church of God) will minister to it. the church isn't a building, but a people. the difficulty is in balancing what i want in a church with what God wants for that local church specifically.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 13:50:48 GMT

Hi everyone! I'm just getting started on Revelife... Drop me a comment if you've got some ideas on what to do first - or just to say, "Hi!" :-)